Day 2 of the New Year and I’ve already realized that no matter what intent you have, life happens with or without you.

I went to bed last night with the grandest of intentions to wake up super early and work on my blog, cook a nice breakfast, and go on a morning jog with my boyfriend. You know, the typical New Years resolutions.

Today I woke up with a head full of thoughts, but a pain so excruciating that I couldn’t begin to gather any of them. 13 years later & I am still fighting a battle that no one seems to have a resolution for, yet not many who feel there should be one.

Chronic Migraines. “We all have headaches” they say. They truly have no idea. Debilitating to say the least. Some days so bad, that I can’t even walk. These aren’t your average everyday headaches. I can’t just take a few pills & make them disappear. Unpredictable. They strike like a thief in the night, taking what was just the life of the party and turning her into a homebound hermit. It’s frustrating. In the past, I’ve had some not so good thoughts on how to put an end to them once and for all. Glad I never put those to action.

I’m one who likes to raise the blinds & literally bathe in the sun. I’m a sunflower for crying outloud; Just not today.

Today I cringe at the thought of light, I get sick to my stomach as the smell of my wallflowers make their way to my nose. I’m already sensitive as it is. What am I to do when this unseen force reads havoc on my senses. I have been the copilot of this body for 13 long years; taking orders from something that can’t even speak. And today, all I can do is write about it.

Oh, what a pain in the neck you are. Today.