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24 Reasons Why

 In less than 24 hours , It will be safe to say I’ve survived for 24 years . .

24 trying years .

With more fears than I can count & none that I can see .

Survival has always been key .

24 .

It rings bells .

It’s that awkward age where you no longer can use ignorance as a bliss , but not quite old enough to know that yet .

24 .

Oh , 24 . Please be good to me .

I’m not asking . I’m demanding . Politely .

Be merciful , be gracious . .

I’ve survived for so long . & I’m not even half way there yet .

Or am I ? Who’s to say ?

In reality we all could die today .

But then I’d never see 24 & this whole post would be in vain ..

So I’ll ask again .

24 . . Please be good to me .

Forget 13 reasons why .

I’ve got 24 . 24 reasons why I know this is my season .

24 reasons why I know I’m still breathing .

24 reasons why I’m just trying to be a beacon . .

Of light —

Lord knows I’ve got 24 more reasons not to be right

I’ve been sharing space with my demons .

That ends today . I now cast you away .

I thought we could coexist , live in harmony with no contradiction .

But you see that light there ? At the end of that tunnel ?

That’s where I want to be .

& with that there , there’s no more room for you & me .

Today , I declare :

  • No more anxiety . . No more getting tired of ME .

  • No more depression , emotions are not weapons .

  • No more procrastination , now or later , the task never changes .

  • No more self doubt, I always figure it out .

  • No more seeking of approval , I am who I am , I don’t need you to understand

  • No more undefined goals , shoot for the moon , land on the moon .

  • No more shifting the blame , if you allow anyone to get you off your shit , YOU allowed that . You’re to blame.

  • No more Neglecting my health , remember it’s all about preservation of self .

  • No more feeding my distractions , everything doesn’t warrant a reaction.

  • No more perfectionism . You’re not perfect . Period. Get over it .

  • No more focusing on things that I can’t or won’t change. Put up or shut up. It just makes sense .

  • No more looking for excuses to be antisocial . You’re a social butterfly 🦋, flap them wings .

  • No more doing work that you don’t love . You’re wasting your time .

  • No more breaks just because you get tired . Strength comes from perseverance & consistency. You know that , act like it .

  • No more running away from your weaknesses. That only makes you weaker .

  • No more accepting a fate that you had no say so in . This is your life . You are not a statistic. You run this .

  • No more giving up . You never know just how close you are to your goals until you’re there . Imagine if you’re only half a mile away .

  • No more carrying the weight of others who have no intentions of lightening the load . You have enough shit of your own .

  • No more rejecting help when it’s offered . That’s the equivalent of praying for food during a famine & then telling the stranger you’re fine when they offer to buy you a meal .

  • No more turning your back on your divinity . You’re a fucking goddess 🧖🏽‍♀️

  • No more trying to control & make sense of everything in your life . You can’t . That’s the beauty of it .

  • No more striving for balance . It doesn’t exist . The world would just have to stand still forever to achieve such balance . It doesn’t . Not for a second .

  • No more holding onto the past & future . You can’t be in control of your present if your focused on the latter .

  • No more waiting until birthdays to make a change . 100 birthdays aren’t promised , but one death is . There’s no greater time than now . 💕🙏🏽

    The Sagacious Sag